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Day 23 - Worn Out

 Today was a bit of a struggle.  I'm just ending the day worn out, physically and emotionally.

I started out in a rather good mood, doing a focused morning time, which was okay, nothing momentous.  But I felt good that I actually did it.  I was going to journal a bit, but not much was coming to me.  Then I decided to go for a walk outside since it was cool enough.

I ended up walking a 5K!  I decided to walk to the end of our area and make a big square back to my house.  One road was blocked off because of construction, and I circled around it.  It might have been fine to just cross it on foot, but I felt weird to do it.  I did not want to get scolded, haha!  

I was really worn out when I got back to the house.  I probably should have balanced my workout a bit.  The most I had walked up until today was about a mile.  Usually, when I get 10,000 steps, I walk them gradually on and off all day.  This was 7500 all at once.  I only had a banana and half a glass of water before I left.  I rested, drank water, then made a sandwich with hummus, avocado, tomatoes, cucumbers and greens.  Later I had a smoothie with frozen peaches and strawberries, vegan protein powder, and almond milk.  

In a little while, I decided to get in the rest of my 10,000 steps and jogged 12 minutes.  I felt pretty good for a little while, then I hit a wall.  I don't think I had near enough calories, maybe not enough fluid, even though I didn't feel that hungry.  I ate quite a bit for dinner, potatoes, mixed vegetables, and a peanut butter sandwich.  Later a Fiber One bar.  I used all of my daily points, but only 1115 calories.  

So I didn't have the extra energy today like I did yesterday eating plant-based.  But it's way too soon to tell why I felt so wrung out.  I think I need to make sure to eat more calories earlier in the day.  I did skip the morning bowl of oatmeal.  

As far as the emotional drain:  I'm sure it started with the fatigue, but I made the mistake of watching something briefly with a lot of arguing.  After less than 10 minutes, I had to turn it off, but it stayed with me.  I also had a change of plans for next week happen.  I think it's fine (my week will actually be easier), but it still affected me somewhat.  I think it is important what we let ourselves be exposed to.  I've learned a lot here lately about guarding my emotional state and adjusting situations and my thoughts to help keep me calm and stable.  

Things are nice and quiet at the moment, and it feels good.  I'm just thinking about how I stayed on track even though I didn't always make the very best decisions.  I just need to take these lessons learned into the next day.  A good thing:  I didn't feel the need to eat for comfort--only for strength.  

I spent the rest of the night quietly:  reading, listening to music.  I had a few more snacks:  apple, a few almonds, small bowl of Raisin Bran.  Off to bed!



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