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Still on Track

For some reason, last night when I went to bed I would not go to sleep.  I was probably actually sleeping at the lightest level; but finally, at about 4:00, I got up, took another Unisom, ate a Atkins lemon bar, went back to bed and went to sleep.  There's no rhyme or reason to nights like that.

I got up about noon (boo), and went immediately to the IRS office and picked up tax forms (they have them out in the hallway, so I don't have to go into the office).  Jake asked me about our status yesterday; and it's a good thing he did because I was not even thinking about doing our taxes.  It's the first year I've totally forgotten.  

I have my Quickbooks caught up for 2019, so I should be able to fill in the forms pretty quickly.  A funny story: a couple of years, I interviewed as a bookkeeper for an accounting firm.  I didn't have much real experience except for self-study and learning Quickbooks, plus kept a small set of books for a friend and her tiny business.  I've kept our books for the last 35+ years and done our taxes for Jake's remodeling business.  But the one who interviewed me (she is a CPA and part-owner of the firm) was absolutely amazed that I filled out tax forms every year (with a Schedule C) manually.  She didn't even do that.  I guess most firms use tax software anymore and just answer the questions it asks and then it spits out a tax return.  I never bought the software since I only do one return, and it seemed like a waste of money.  But I felt rather buff that she was so amazed that I could do that, lol.

I did start exercising again today after about a 10-day break.  I did a 15-minute jog, which was the time I did the last time I worked out.  I was able to go 15 minutes at a very slow pace, so I don't feel like I lost too much progress.  It was just at a noticeably slower pace.  I got in 7836 steps.  I've eaten about 1200 calories so far, pretty much just oatmeal, banana, and Taco Villa.  I picked me up two burritos at about 6:30, had one then, and the other several hours later.  

The rest of the day was very leisurely.  Did a grocery pickup, called for a hair appointment.  Jared and Kari called us this evening and pow-wowed with us about some future plans on finishing and selling their house.  That was pretty much my day.  

I have been reading voraciously the last few weeks/months.  I downloaded an app where I can download books from the library digital library.  It doesn't have every book that the actual library has, but it does have a ton of books I can read.  

I also started some work on Step 1.  Al-Anon's version (also AA) reads:  We admitted we were powerless over alcohol--that our lives had become unmanageable.  I have to say that it takes an awful lot to bring us to that point.  My problem is not alcohol; many people substitute the word "alcohol" with "people, places and things."  The Twelve Steps for Christians substitutes "alcohol" with "the effects of our separation from God."

It's amazing how much I will try to manage in life when there is no earthly way I have control over that part of my life.  But I spent some time today meditating about that area of my life.  

Not very exciting day, but I'll take it.  Let's hope the taxes don't take too long tomorrow.  I have my 7:00 meeting with A. that I set up yesterday.  

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