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Back Again - Day 58

It's a year later, and here I am again.  I actually never quit WW, but got distracted along the way again.  It's interested that I started Al-Anon again, which you would think would assist in staying on a weight loss program, but somehow it didn't.  I don't know if I can even remember what happened.  One day goes wrong, then another. . . .

By the way, I'm calling this Day 58 since it is day 58 of my attending WW again.  

But everything I've written in here is true, I think.  I have to reach that point where weight loss is something I must continue, no excuses.  Sure, we will have periods of detours, but hopefully, those will become much shorter.

I started going to meetings again maybe six weeks ago after having regained all but two pounds of my weight loss.  I was happy with myself that I did not cancel my membership; I always the intention of going back.  Covid was not helpful.  And I am proud that I went almost a month on WW with no support.  I evidently was more focused on working the 12 steps and somehow did not incorporate that into my weight loss enough.

I am still working those steps and am on Step 10 now which is very encouraging to me, being one of those that tends to stop and start on so many things.  One thing I've noticed in all of this is how much better I do if I am journaling (or blogging) and also using a Bullet Journal.  A Bullet Journal is a notebook that combines a daily planner, to-do list, and a journal in one.  If I am not doing those things (or one of those things), I quickly fall back into my old ways and bad habits.  

WW has changed their program again, as happens often, and it is much more customized.  I go weeks where I am logging points faithfully and then other weeks where I just cut back and use the meetings and weigh-ins to keep me accountable.  I mentioned before, and I think it is true, that I eat much more healthily if I am logging points.  Healthy choices are just rewarded with way less points--so that is an enticement.  

The last couple of days I did intermittent fasting until 5:30 or 6, then just ate a reasonable meal in the evening and a couple of snacks before bed.  I like being able to do that.  It helps me to be able to go quite a few hours without having to eat.  But I don't eat enough fruit and veggies that way.  Regardless of my method, I just have to keep at it.  I am now down 10 pounds, I think.  

Being back in Al-Anon for a year has helped me a lot with my emotional state and spiritual state.  I am working hard at being okay even if events around me are not so okay.  It's a good foundation to be back on the weight loss wagon.  We'll see how it affects me in the long run now.

I haven't had a lot of calories, but my eating was rather strange.  I didn't eat until mid-afternoon:  a banana, deli turkey breast on bread with mustard, sliced cucumber, some hickory-smoked almonds.  Dinner was a small fast-food hamburger with mustard, no cheese, and a few fries and a bit of catsup.  I also had a handful of Chewy Sprees.  I'll have some kind of snack before bedtime.  Calories are under 1000 at the moment.  So far today I have walked 4800 steps, but I'm planning on getting it up to 6700 before bed.  

I made a goal yesterday to lose 7 pounds in September (official pounds at my weigh-ins).  I also plan to walk 200,000 steps.  That sounds like a ton, but it adds up to around 6450 steps per day.  I thought it would be fun seeing that number add up over the month.  Seven pounds is a bit lofty, but I wanted to set my goal a bit high to keep me motivated.

It feels so good to not only be going back to WW and losing weight, but also to be setting other goals and working on personal growth.  The last two years have been so hard for all of us, and I purpose to persevere and live my life in a meaningful way!  It adds so much joy when life can become hopeless or meaningless.  


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